Danny Stiles, 7/8/03

This is all so ridiculous. Sitting here at 4 almost, have to get up at 7:30. I'm hungry even. The funny thing is, now that I'm writing, I realize how ridiculous it is that I don't stay up anymore and write at 4am. Seeing Steve and Alex today drove that home even more. Memories of freer times, I guess. I'm losing myself, in a way. Afraid to go out, afraid to be awake. Afraid of dirt. Afraid of disorder. All the messiness and flailing limbs. Afraid of fat. I'm gonna eat something and stay up a long time and listen to music. Stiles on your dials. He's talking about DiMico's. 718-875-5403. Frank DiMico. President of the Kiwanis Club of Western Brooklyn. That trusty old dusty 78. Al Bowles' "The Very Thought of You." More about me, except I'm not interested in me. "Spin the old nostalgia wheel back to September 2, 1940. I was matriculating at [such and such] high school in Newark, NJ." "Jelly Roll killed my pappy--it runned my mommy stone blind." "...Klepping Nachus over that one." "Snuffy's Pantageous Renaissance on eastbound Route 22 in Scotch Plains, NJ. 908-751-2241. Steve and Nick Pantageous.""Three Guys From Italy with real dancing. 170 Washington Avenue. 973-751-2241. Be sure to ask for a copy of Frank Sinatra's birth certificate." "Marco Polo. Joe Shirico wants you to come celebrate. Court Street in Brooklyn. 718-852-5015. Call Michael Scotto fro reservations and details about our celebration.